Somebody to love

weird post title? well, it is. i just come out with this tittle because i've lunch with my sister.
so here we go..

this afternoon i went to steak cafe with my sister cuz she insist wanna try their steak. so i accompany her. and then i see a couple. they seems so sweet and enjoy their food. the first thing that come across my mind is.. when will i become like them? "STUPID" yea, i know it. but its been like 2 years since im not gonna intend to have a relantionship with guys but.. sometimes i feel lonely thou im with my girls or with my family. having someone special in out side than not having them seems to be different. so i think i should find that "someone special for me" but...

i dont need a man who's always could hang out with me,shopping with me, hang out with me or someone who can always pick me up 24/7 but. i rather have someone who can understand me and always be there for me for 24/7. that always is for.. keeping me, not leaving me alone and really someone that i can talk to like my buddy. so i want someone that can be my love also can be my best friend. but in this past 2 years i just can't find them TT

well, stupid dear-diary session is just up here.

anyway, the steak is just good. i ordered chicken steak with pepper and mushroom. and its sooo good. also the orange float soda. i just can't count my weight anymore. ww

5 Days free !

so here the point, i've got 5 days free in a row. well, im not happy with that. maybe some of you ask why? but its because my Practical Exam being posponed because of that! grr i mean, i already study soo hard for it and its being postponed? ww but even im dissapointed,there's nothing wrong with study hard rite? lol xD

anyway, i have really hima for this 5 days. actually there's Aceh Fair in a town and today is the last day. i've visited it but there's nothing there so i ended up drinking coconut water with my friend and its feel good thou. since i've nothing to do in those whole 5 days maybe im ended up with my anatomy books studying for it. w or maybe tomorrow im goin to buy some DVDs and watch it or download some videos, i dont know it depends on the mood thou but im definietly gonna study for my anatomy class first.

sometimes, i thought to learn another languange. since i can speak japanese,indonesian,english and a lil korea so i'll add with chinese. but chinese seems so hard and there's cantonese too. im inspired by Wonder Girls 2DT Chinese ver. and i think "wow, chinese languange is grool". w

btw, im gonna recommed you songs (of course its kpop or jpop) so check them out :

2NE1 - Lonely

B2ST Rainy Days

Ayaka - Mikazuki (old song, but i just noticed it.w)